Moviess.

Watched New Moon <3

So nice ! Edward is so... so cool and handsome !

And Jacob, wow... How cool !

Bella, beautiful and Alice is pretty also !

" Bella, marry me. "

And someone in the cinema shouted " SHIT ",

because thats the ending of New Moon.

Hahahaha.

Christmas Carol, i want to watch !

But the movie i want to watch the most : The Storm Warriors II

Im waiting. What the F ?!

I want to watch it so much, anyone is coming with me?

" 千年修行，都不及一夜成魔。"

Omg, i love GSC !

原来地球 没有睡眠的时间。

凌晨3点钟。

好安静，安静得只听到自己的呼吸声。

大地在沉睡，我感觉到了夜晚的凄凉。

因为夜太深，周围一片寂静。

令我觉得格外清醒，脑海里想着很多事情。

发生了，发生着，即将发生的 我都在思量。

得到的答案，的确比平时来得更实际。

在这片土地上，有多少个人能体会夜晚的孤独？

就像

到了白天，又有多少个人能体会大地被踩着的痛苦？

火山会爆发，是不是在暗示我们它在不满一些事情？

地会震，是不是因为忍不住大地万物依靠在它身上？

风会刮，雨会下，日会亮，夜会暗 ...

如果没有科学原理，你会怎么想这些有的没的的自然现象？

地球在转，为了我们而转。

我们却辜负了它 ...

任由垃圾堆满整个陆地，任由脏水污染整片大海。

你，觉得愧疚吗？

白天你们都在忽略这大地，夜晚就让我陪着大地入睡。

Whoooooops.

Im at Wild Fire now.

The place which i last met Khai Ther.

That time he was just right beside me.

And now, he is not here.

Or maybe he is behind of me but i cant see him.

Heyy Khai Ther, online now ! =X

Heeeeh <3

I feel much more better now.

But sometimes when i heard some songs or saw something,

i'll miss him.

Everytime when im alone, im thinking of him.

His sweet smile, is so charming.

Everything of him, everything i knew about.

I'll always remember, and i'll never forget.

He is just that cool you know, its really really difficult to forget him.

So i never want to try it, never want to try to forget him.

Im sure that i cant do it. =D

Heyy man, how's life in Paradise? <3

ran - missyoumissyoumuacks

The 7th day.

你的离去留下了我们对你无尽的思念。

今天是你离开的第七天，

华人称 头七。

听到了，又有难过的感觉。

算过了，你离开的第一百天。

是农历新年，年初五吧！

没有了你，好像世界都停下来了。

只有时间和对你的思念依然在走。

从现在开始，珍惜身边的人已经来不及了。

对我而言，顺其自然。

还有很多很重的石头在我心里，

所以我还适应不来。

可是时间在走，地球在转。

生活一样要过，只好把对你的思念，

化成我每一次的呼吸，

所以

你 每份每秒 与我同在。

而这也是唯一，我不会忘记做的事情。


----------------------


Today is the " tao 7 " of Khai Ther.

They said he 'll be back, i dont know but i hope so.

Aiks, i dont know what to say.

Only, i miss him.

He runs at least a thousand times in my mind everyday.

These days, i cant sleep without looking at his photos and watching his videos.

I still remember that my sketch is to remind people to appreciate everyone,

but i am the one who said it and cant do it.

Why? im just a loserr.

* People who cancelled my sketch, dont you feel sorry?

ran - imstillmissingyou, somuch.

When i saw the meteors, my first wish would be :

Hope Khai Ther is goood in Paradise.

A new week, but not a new beginning.

Time flies like wind. Really.

Last Mondayy, Khai Ther got an accident.

And so fast, Monday came again.

Last Tuesdayy, his friends visited him at HTAA.

And so fast, Tuesday is coming again.

Last Wednesday, Khai Ther passed away.

So fast, Wednesday is coming soon.

Last Thursday, we sent him to Gambang and said goodbye to him.

So fast, Thursday is coming soon.

I guess, 2012 is coming also. Im waiting...

Heyy you. KT

Our beloved Angel, Khai Ther :

You leave us, you leave the world.
And we learnt to appreciate our lives, and everything.
But how many of them that really can do it?
Everyone said, we'll never forget you.
How many of them really keep their promise?
Yes, maybe they will remember you,
for one hour, one day or one year.
But you know, i'll never forget you.

Seriously, 100 years or 1000 years are not enough for me
to remember you, to miss you.
I said, i'll only remember you for 2 moments.

Now and Always.

Really, i'll always remember you.

The one who always cheer me up,
the one who always smile to me.
The one who always talk non-sense,
the one who always skipped school.

Garee said this during your funeral,

" Khai Ther, you must remember me, the most dark one.

And Raney, the " airport ". "

Omg, you still remember that?
You know you are always the sweetest,
the one who care about friends so much.

A simple word of you is enough to comfort me, always.
Looking at your photos,
watching the videos that your friends edited for you,
many times a day.

You know,
you are just keep walking here and there in my mind,
dont you feel tired?

Why dont you ever come into my dreams,
and tell me you are fine?
It's okay if you've forgotten me,
but really, i'll never forget you in my whole life.

If the story of 2012 is true,
then maybe its good for me and some of your friends.
Because we can meet you soon !
But how if im not going Heaven but Hell? Omg.

Wait for us, only 3 years. Okay?

ran - 2012, come faster.

The Angel, Khai Ther.

Heyy Khai Ther, what are you doing there?

I bet you are missing us. Haha.

If you are free, give me a call from Paradise kayy?

3 days, we live without you.

Miss you but we hope you are fine.

Whats the time now in Heaven?

You met Michael Jackson?

Wow, so cool.

You should ask MJ to teach you Moonwalk la dude.

Heyy hows the line in Heaven?

As sucks as here?

Hows the cyber cafe?

I think the cashier is a pretty angel right?

So now you have wings?

Cool man.

Know new friends?

I bet there are girls want to know you,

But you dont simply give them your handphone number tau?

If not you will be very busyy everyday.

You happy la, many things to play in Paradise.

Okay, i know you are busying over there. '

Talk to you next time kay?

Have a nice dayy. <3

对不起，想念你。

* 记得今年 Leo Installation Night 吗？
我们的 drama 来不及表演，那时我很伤心。
因为这是我的第一次，我准备了很久。
我哭了，你擦干我的眼泪。
你跟我说，
“ 没关系！明年 IU Night 的时候，
我们再表演就好了。
有我在，不用怕。”
可是现在你走了，我要怎么办？
没有男主角了，要怎么表演？
你看你，放飞机。
罚你拉耳朵三十下，听到吗？


你在的时候，都没什么理你。

现在，有好多话要跟你说。

你真的听的见吗？

好想看看你，再也没机会了。

不知道以后经过你的班时，是否能够忍得住泪水...

不知道以后看到你照片时，是否能够安抚得住自己的心...

从来没有试过，每隔一分钟，就想看你一次。

你真的好吗？怎么不回答我？

安慰自己的话，说了很多，还是没用。

安慰别人的话，也说了很多，也一样没用。

如果你看见我在哭泣，我不是伤心。

而是为了你有更好的生活，开心得落泪。

好想要你来欺负我，好像以前一样。

最多，你欺负我，我不骂你好不好？

我知道，时间会冲淡一切。

我们等你投胎，再和你做多一次朋友。

再让你欺负我，再让我们照顾你。

我们为你祈祷，你快快投胎哦！

我们等你，知道吗？

别忘了要常常笑，不然我们会认不出你的。

你灿烂的笑容，是我对你印象最深刻的。

你还没来得及看这个世界，没关系。

我们会连你的份，一起去看这个世界。

虽然你不在，生活中少了笑声，多了遗憾。

可是我们做朋友，是一辈子的。

不是说不再见就不是朋友了，而是...

放你在心里，即使没有见面，

你还是陪着我们度过每一分每一秒。

我知道你一直在看我们，我们都很乖。

所有的一切都很好。

我们为了你而活，都说是为了你，为了你这个开心果，

我们会开开心心的，为了你而活。

你不要担心我们会忘了你，就算过了一千万年，我们都会记得你，

曾经带给我们快乐，曾经要我们幸福。

曾经是东方神起的舞者，曾经是我们的同学。

未来，有你相伴，

就算遇到挫折，我们也不退缩。

ran - 记得我们永远是朋友。

黎凯德 收 [ 22/02/1992 - 11/11/2009 ]

傻佬凯德，

昨天，我们都有去送你。

Garee，永康，靖芳，惠嫣，神，Carmen, Renee, Sasa 等。

真的很多。

看到你的照片挂在车头，真的不敢相信，你就要走了。

去 Gambang 的路途中，我的心一直在想你，平复着自己的心情。

突然，
“ 如果我变成回忆
退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你... ...”

是我们 Sketch 的歌。

家骏播着这首歌，我真的忍不住，他看到我哭，他很醒目的换了一首歌。

“ 最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候
没有说一句话就走
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多
你却没有感动过... ...”

可是，歌词如此，谁也难掩心中的伤感。凯德，你的兄弟真是很搞笑。

终于到了火化场。

我们上香给你，送花给你。

我们陪在你的身边，直到你被推进火化场。

我们一直叫你的名字，你听到吗？

听到了记得回来哦！

今天早上，你的骨灰已经安放在观音堂了。

我们有空会去找你，那时候你一定要起身哦！

你在天堂过得怎么样？

有看到美美的天使吗？千万不要又对他们甜言蜜语啊！

你人缘这么好，在天堂的两天里，应该认识了很多朋友吧？

有了新朋友，也绝对不能忘记在这里想着你的朋友知道吗？

上次，你表演时，失手跌倒。

我看到了，又是吓到，又是担心。

下了台，你摸着我的头，说你没事，要我不用担心。

怎么现在不摸摸我的头，说你没事，要我不用担心？

虽然我不懂，要多久才能收拾起心情，扬起嘴角。

可是希望在天堂的你，不要担心我们。

我们会过得很好，因为你不在了，你还是在我们心里。



希望有一天，看到你在路上，叫你的时候，你可以回头笑一笑，让我知道你过得很好。

祝你一路走好。

勿念.

柔君 字。

不乖的凯德。

最近都写中文，是因为凯德不会看英文。

凯德 ：

走了一天，在天堂活得怎么样？
无忧无虑吗？
下午就要送你走了，以后都看不到你了。
如果想你的时候该怎么办？
17岁的你，在睡梦中离开。
是因为你很累，要睡很久吗？
你不乖！不听话，不要和我们玩了是不是？
听到你车祸，我真的吓到。
真的，很心疼你。
看到你在病床上，很痛...
我知道你很痛，可是我们都帮不到你。
对不起，去看你时，没认出你来。
以前，我都骂你，骂你烦。
你还傻傻的笑...
现在，你来烦我好吗？
他们说你打DOTA很厉害，你走了，他们要怎么进步啊？
没有你跟他们一起跳舞，他们要怎么办啊？
很快就要开学了，去到学校，看不到你怎么办？
你一路上走得很好吧？
不寂寞对不对？
因为大家都在陪你，你知道吗？
没有了你，我的话剧怎么办？
我的女主角没有了男主角怎么办？
生活中没有了你的笑容怎么办？
平时跟你说话，我才说一句，你就回我十句。
这几天的你，我们跟你说了一百万句，你却连一个字都不回。
很不习惯...
平时都问你可不可以安静一点，现在我想问你可不可以吵多一点？
你的声音是怎样的，我忘了。
我看了你很多次，我怕我忘了你的样子。
你知道我去看你了吗？
很讨厌你，
讨厌你不辞而别，
讨厌你说走就走。
讨厌你不说 bye bye，
讨厌你从我们的生活中消失...
十七岁的你，
什么都还没尝试过就离开了。
看到你的身体，被白布包着，
送到停尸房。
你能体会我们的心情吗？
多么难受...
到了积善堂，看到你的照片。
为什么一个这么熟悉的脸孔，要随着一场车祸，
变成了回忆？
即使是回忆，也是美好的。
在Swiss Garden，我们一起游泳，一起玩。
摸你的肌肉，和你谈女生的事。
那是你的肌肉很结实。
去看你时，看到你一动也不动。
手也没反应，我慢慢的握起你的手...
很冰，很僵硬，真的。
那时的我，心痛。
你温暖的手呢？
那双替我擦干眼泪的温暖的手呢？
希望你，开开心心。
不寂寞，不孤独的去到另一个更美好的世界。
我们不会忘记你的，一生一世...


* 我冲了凉，就去看你咯！等我，还有靖芳。

Cries. [ Khai Ther ]

* 大自然的定律

很巧， 去医院看他最后一面时， 看到护士推着一条小生命经过加护病房。一条新生命来了，就会有一条结束。是这样的吗？

He is gone, we cried but he doesnt know.

I cant accept the truth. He is gone, onlyy 17.

He has no chance to say anything he wants to say.

He has no chance to do what he wants to do.

And now, we can do nothing.

I hope he is good in Heaven.

I'll never forget you, bro.

The 2 girls will be okay soon, dont worry.

We will take care of them.

You are so sweet, friendly and nice.

Im glad that im a part of your life.

Goodbye, Khai Ther. <3

ran - Byebye, miss you.

To my bro, LAI KHAI THER.

Khai Ther :

还睡啊？睡了一天还不够？ 你以为没有调闹钟就不用起身啊？

现在流行人肉闹钟，每一天我们都会叫你起床。你不可以赖床啊！

今天去看你，看到了。心很痛。你的笑容呢？你的活泼呢？都在沉睡吗？

今天，我第一次在同一时间看到男生女生一起抱头痛哭。

上次我哭的时候，你记得你还替我擦眼泪吗？

这次我又哭了，可是却是我自己擦眼泪。

你起身啦！握着你的手，冰冰的，僵硬的。

你要加油知道吗？

我们都在等你，要你永远和我们一起。

你听到吗？

不想再看到我们的眼泪，就快点醒过来！

Don't you remember the two girls who you love and love you are waiting for you?

They cried, very badlyy.

We talk alot to you but you dont ever reply us a word.

The tears are dropping, our hearts are bleeding.

Cant you just dont give up,

for the friendss,

for the lovers,

for the parents and siblings?

Please, wake upp.

Everyone is worrying about you,

you are sleeping and we are praying for you.

My sketch, you are the main character.

You have to finish the sketch ! MUST !

You love dancing i know.

You said you want to be a professional dancer,

so you gotta practise harder.

Calvin, Prince Lee, Chean bang, Chin Lap are waiting for you

to dance with them,

perform with them.

Cant you just leave us. NO !

Faster wake please, may God bless you. <3

* Visit you again tomorrow, bro.

ran - Brothers Forever.

Worring about he and she.

Im so worry.

Worrying about he and she.

The 2 friends, the 2 main characters of my sketch.

He was in an accident just now, and we are still dont know whether now he is still alive or not.

Or later he is still alive or not. Doctors are doing their work, he is still sleeping on the bed, never open his eyes for one second since he has been sent to there.

She knew the news and cried. She is worrying and he is suffering, Im now thinking and praying. I guess now she is asleep, i've accompanied her for 3 hours and finally she went for bed.

Received a forward message just now, its like something to pray for him.

1. I really dont want to lost you 2 ( KT and HJ ) my brother. You two are my forever and ever geh brother. - Wayne

2. 希望你们没事，一定要撑下去。加油！- Nicky

3. 好想看到他跳舞。快点好啊！- 博

4. 你不会有事的，我们永远支持你。- 骏

5. 我好像看到你笑，你知道吗？！你一定没事的。- 芳

6. 我的话剧不能没有男主角， LEO 的舞台不能没有舞者。Get well soon, you know there are girls waiting for you. - Raney

etc.

If praying is work, then i guess every of his friends is praying for him.

I hope he will be okay soon, and i hope she will be alright soon.

ran - Be tough man, be strong girl. <3

7th and 8th of November.

7th of November.

Went jogging with Jasmine in the morning then have breakfast and then lunch with her and her sister. Helped cleaning their house. Went home at 2pm and went out at 4pm.

Pick Jasmine up at around 4 then go to Dutaaa Village !

Swim and swam.

Then went brother's room to take bath. Then have dinner, brother and her girlfriend were celebrating their brithday. * Barbecue.

8th of November.

Planned to go Ecm at 9 something but Jasmine and I were late. Went there, and there was already crowded with people. So, aikss. Met cousins, then Man Houw. Then met up with Evonne and Nicole. Chicken and Fish * Jin Fan, Jia Woey.

Finally, the singers and actors arrived and you know, i saw Kevin drinking water in the room ! Walao, how man...

Around 5pm, went Megamall with Jasmine. Bought movie tickets then had dinner, with brother and his girlfriend. Met Chean Bang, Calvin, Chin Lap, Prince Lee in front of cinema. They watch Phobia 2 and we watch Poker King.

Poker King is nice, not bad. The movie started at 8.15pm and ended at 10.15pm. 2 hours, i thought 1 and half an hour only. Rushed for another movie after that, Phobia 2. We were late but luckily the movie is like " Where got ghost ", 5 stories in a movie. The first 4 is quite scary but the last one, i watched and i were like " Huh, dengggggg !! " The last one isnt scaryy but quite funny lur.

Finish watching Phobia 2 and it was 12am. Jasmine called Arion to pick us up and we both went home. Sundayy, outing day.

ran - what to do?

谁也不是谁的谁。

自从五年前遇见了你之后，

我知道

我会迷失我自己。

可是我还是坚持下去，

到了今天

我对你还是一样

没有变过。

唯一改变过的，

就是对你的感觉

越来越深。

如果我能为你做一件事，

你应该会希望

从来没有遇见过我。

我也一样。

如果我没遇见你，

现在

我还是原来的自己。

Taggy.

*Personal Details
1. Name : Raney Tan Rou Jane.
2. Birthday : 16th of January, 1994.
3. Horoscope : Capricorn.
4. Phone Number : 016 922 5122.
5. School : SMK Air Putih.
6. One word to describe yourself : Lazyy.
7. People you hate : -
8. People you love : He (s) and she (s).
9. Fall in love before : Yes.
10. Fall in love with : ... ... ...
11. You prefer single or in a relationship : Depends.
12. Have you learn any music instruments : Yes.
13. What's that instruments : Piano.
14. Your ambitions : Dont know.
15. Your wishes for now : He can be mine.
16. Name one of your friend who you think he/she is the most important for you? Not onlyy one.



* You love
- What food? Urm, dont know.
- What drinks? Dont know.
- Who? Family and friends, and someone.
- What ? What i love.
- Where ? I dont know.
- Books ? Not really.


* You hate
- Who? -
- What kind of people? With sucks attitude.
- To go where ? Dont know.


*People who tagged you
- You hate the people ? No.
- You love her? I bukan lesbian.
- Relationship between you both ? Friends.
- He/she got any bad attitude ? Think so.
- How you know him/she? Kindergarden.
- How long do you know him/she ? 10 years.
- His/her birthday ? 20th of July, 1994.
- You know him/she well? Not really.
- Anything to tell him/she? Hope you can pass the Electone Examination?

Simple update.

Im so boring, my life now is quite meaningless. Until the end of SPM.
Then da lao will bring me out? And my lovelyy cousin, i cant wait to go out with her.
I meaning she drives. Hehehehe.
Im going ECM on Sunday, to watch those celebrities from HONG KONG.
Oh my god, i want to see them now. =D


ran - Emo, no more.

♥ muacks.

* The time now is 06.15am, 4th of November.

The 100th post.

Firstly, i would like to say...

Happy Sweet 15th Birthday, dear Sylvia, Si Wen. I love you ! [ 04/11/09 ]

To someone :

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you.

If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you.

If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you.

But I did, I do and I always will.

If loving you is wrong, then I don't want to be right!

If loving you is a crime. I'd like to be jailed for my whole life, in your heart.

I love you. Like a fat kid loves cakes.

If you have 1000 years of age, I just want to have 999 years and 364 days. So, I never have to live a day without you.